Radio Silence

It appears I'm an absentee blogger. I stand convicted. It's just that I've been a busy girl, but not busy with anything too terribly blogworthy. My best friend and hetero lifemate moved into my house at the beginning of the month. I was very busy preparing for her arrival and now I am very busy enjoying her company. Now, I'm not accustomed to having roommates, and I am fiercely protective of my personal space, belongings and foodstuffs. Despite this, I've really taken to having someone around all the time. I am a slightly less naked person as a result of her presence, and I sing less, as my nudism and vocal stylings are not accustomed to having an audience. That is certainly no small tragedy, but apart from that it has been smooth sailing. She is not from Chicago, and as such I have found myself experiencing my city more fully as a result of showing it off to her. Plus, I've got a built-in sidekick, now. Win, win, win.

I have made the decision to go back to school in the Spring. The thought terrifies me for a number of reasons. The most important of these are A) incurring debt, which I avoid at all costs and B) the possibility of spending all this time and money on college and still not knowing what I want to do when I have my degree; still being at square one but $30k in the hole. You know? I'm going to try as much as I can to pay out of my own pocket for my education, like I did when I started, but I doubt I'll be able to do it all without a loan of some sort. It's a big risk, but I'm hoping that I'm right when I assume I'd regret not getting my degree more than I'll regret getting it. The current plan is to continue majoring in Biology unless something else ignites passion. I just know that if I don't do it soon, I never will.

I will make an effort to blog more often. Now that Jefferson's blog is essentially out of commission, though, I've found my readership is barely there. Avah is now my top referrer, but the numbers are dismal on the whole. With everything that's going on in the intertubes at the moment, though, I guess now is a good time for me to be sparse with my posts. I've been following the situation in a half-assed manner lately, and I've only got a little bit to say about it.

I have a sort of oversimplified, kindergarten-esque way of viewing character debates. Theoretically, I suppose this shouldn't have become a character debate, but then, this is the internet. I think in black and white when it comes to these issues, and I judge people based solely on what my personal experience with them has been and whether or not they seem, to me, to be a "good person." My definition of a "good person" is pretty simple, too. If I believe that someone has good intentions, and does not set out to cause deliberate harm to anyone, they pass in my eyes, regardless of any poor decisions they may or may not have made. Yes, I've heard the adage about what kinds of roads are paved with good intentions, but to me, it is intent that is most important. In my opinion, most people are fuck-ups in their own special way. I know I am. I make more mistakes than any person should be entitled to. Nobody is anywhere near perfect and as such, if my impression of someone is that they are fundamentally good people and deserving of support, I will do what I can. Nobody on either side of the argument (as far as I've read) has done or said anything that struck me as genuine, deliberate cruelty or ill-will. I just see a lot of standard grievance-airing and lashing out, only on a large, public scale and at an inopportune time. A lot of very normal reactions from a lot of very normal, and seemingly nice people. The pacifist in me absolutely cringes at the vitriol, but I sympathize with just about everyone from either side.

I also talk in circles at 1 A.M., apparently. But I suspect you get the idea.